If you don’t get it and/or think this is just gross then i am truly sorry… that you aren’t on my level of maturity:B
It is late and i must sleeeep, but i remembered i had made this so i wouldn’t have to reference Rick and The Doctor, but i never posted it anywhere because i wanted the picture to be a surprise… annd reason i’m not showing Clara/Morty’s is because that one ended up being in the final version of the picture:P
Every sad story sounds good when you think of it in reverse… but nothing fixes the hole create in peoples hearts when you abuse them with terrible puns._.
I was watching a lot of Oil Painting videos and i got tired of watching and started racing this one [x] but it stopped and then i kept going and then i was bored with what i made so i gave him a neat dew and a friendly little cloud:3
Stuff.. working on a Rick and Morty cross over picture when i got sucked into painting one of the sketches:P
ANNNNND now i’m depressed.. This shit sucks, makes it hard to want to work on ideas you want to work on, i’ve been staring at a simple one all day and made several attempts to sketch the base design but it is pissing me off.. I hate being depressed, i just want to talk to friends, and then all i do is bitch, and then i hate my self for wasting my time and theirs by bitching, and then i start feeling bad when no one is chiming in.. like it’s my fault and they hate me for some reason but i know i’m not that bad i am just jumping the gun because my brain is like “every second that passes is a second you are wasting away” and then i think about all i haven’t accomplished, how very alone and inside my own head that i am, and then i start to try and diagnose it and that usually turns out bad cause then i am basically just blaming the depression on someone else or something else that is happening when i know full well this shit is all me, doing this too my self.
I think i got to stop trying to do projects or get on top of life stuff and just doodle shit for the next couple of days.. or maybe i just needed to say it, so i feel like i’ve shaved off some of the pressure, i usually wake up the same, completely lost, waiting for night fall to help lull me back into a creative mode that gets crushed when i notice once again i’ve been up all night..
Sorry about blasting anyone with this, if you read it all the way to this point, i appreciate the sympathy(or would it be empathy?) and i hope you are feeling better than I.